You never know how strong you are, 
until being strong is the only choice you have left.

 

Hi Lovelies 
Time check 2335 hours now 

I cried just now in the evening. I was so stress and tired that I burst my tears out. Glad that I've my parent, aunt and grandma to be here for me and guide me and advise me. They're really my supporting family ♥ I cannot imagine life without them.

Yes, so I cried because I felt so tired and stress, have to admit that this pregnancy really made me very emotional because at one point that I'm going through this myself and it's kinda tired and stress that I've to feed 2 kids up myself, however I don't regret because I love them and I'm the one that want to bring them to Earth so I've to make sure that they're in happiness.

Daddy & Mommy advise me that life might be tough now for me, but in the future, I'll be happy because I'll see my child grow up happy and healthy, and I'll find everything so worthwhile. They told me, I still have them to depend on, I still have them to help me along this tough journey, not just them but my sibling, my relative. ♥

I cried and spit out everything

I felt tired because I don't understand why do I've to suffer alone while that man is having fun. I felt tired because I don't understand why am I having all this treatment while that man is going through nothing. I felt so fucked up and tired, really.

But I was wrong

He can be enjoying now but what is left in his life? NOTHING. He could be flirting and having fun out there but who know what will happen in the future? He might just get aids and die. He is having fun and having everything he want, but what he left in the end of his life is just - NOTHING.

And I'm different

I might be stress and tired now, but I still have my daughters. I might have to sacrifice a lot to feed my daughters, but still I have my daughter and I can enjoy in the future. I might have lost everything but I still have my daughter with me and they'll be mine forever, because I'm the one that bring them on Earth and feed them, take care of them, love them.

Yes, I've to be positive

Being a single parent is not easy, is twice the tired, twice the stress, twice the tears but it's also twice the hugs, twice the love and twice the pride. I love how my daughter hug me and gave me the comfort and I'm thankful that they're by my side and to be able to have them to hug me is really a bless.


No matter what, from now, I'll endure and work hard

♥♥♥