Stress? Depressed? I don't know.

Hello 

I'm going to update the space again but this time round, it's just some emotional rant because I really need to rant to someone but I don't know who I can turn to now thus I'm right here blogging it out so probably at least I would feel better? I don't know, but well better than nothing.

 

Yes, I'm feeling super STRESS !

I don't know where does this stress comes from all of a sudden or probably because how my friend analyse my life and future to me and I come to know that I have live too easily and stress-free from the past 20 years of my life. I don't know why did I trusted the wrong person and my life just goes "pooof" like that with two kids and not financial stable or you can say I just simply eat grass every month, please don't think that I'm a very rich woman.

I am stress about kids, money and love. 

I didn't know that I would be this stress and think a lot about it because no one ever in my life would analyse it and tell me everything but he just simply did and whatever he says really make sense to me and I really agree to what he says a lot. However, I am just too slow to have realize it and end up where I am today now but of cos my two kids are still a bless and no regrets to me.

There's a lot things running through my mind that I couldn't use words to express myself and even tell anyone because it's just too much that I can't stop having them on my mind and I realize that I actually don't have the time for love at all and also, because I've two kids it's never easy for me to balance out between my 2 kids and love. I know myself that kids will definitely be more important than love and thus, I hope I could balance them as much as I can.

 

Anyway, all the stress I am facing now is actually stress that I give myself but sigh, never mind I will just keep trying and do my best to change to the best. :') I know if I've the will and determination, I will be able to do it  and of cause I must do it! JIAYOU.