Disclaimer: It's going to be a personal emotional ranting.
I'm fading away.
I don't know where is my real smile
I am tired, be it mentally, physically or emotionally.
I am trying my best to recover from the injuries that I have fall from,
it's not easy but I am recovering slowly now.
To have fail in marriage,
I really have phobia going/entering another relationship;
I wish I can just let it go so cool and get into another relationship,
but there's so much that comes to consideration.
I think probably, I have become matured
My mindset ain't like the past anymore,
I don't just think once or twice,
but I just keep asking myself whenever I want to do something
Because of my Princesses,
I have to think for them also as they're just too important.
I won't want my decision to hurt them or stuff like that thus it's very important.
I'll break these chains that bind me, so happiness will find me.
Being loved is really the best thing
but I just can't keep reminding myself about the past that I have,
and also the failed marriage that I have been through
There's fear, there's worries,
none of these fears and worries can let me off
I keep reminding myself the scar that's left deeply in my heart
I keep reminding myself the pain that I've been through
so, I will not get hurt/pain anymore
Accepting a new relationship needs a lot of courage,
when I accept that relationship, I don't give in all,
because I worry that hurt might just hits me again.
Anyway
to remind myself everyday about pain
is what I am doing now and always.
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