Happy 1st Birthday, Dacia

22nd September 2013, Sunday

 

 

 

On the Sunday, Shervelle & I attend Dacia's 1st Birthday Party and it's also the first party that Shervelle went to. I was really looking forward because I can get to meet Angeline too as it's been a year or more since I know here but still don't get a chance to meet her up at all. Went to buy a Hello Kitty top from FOX at Vivo City last Sunday for Shervelle as it's Dacia's party theme.

 

 

 

Dad drove Shervelle & I to the venue, it was quite near our place. I reach around 1pm plus and I think I was kinda early because there ain't much people yet. Have a great chat session with Angeline and her Sister, Adeline. It's really nice knowing them and Shervelle as usual, she was so shy and isolate people around. LOL, that's her pattern. She need to adapt to the enviroment.

 

 

Shervelle's hair of the day.

 

  

She ask me to go with her to the room and she's playing with the bricks.

 

 

 

So I just stay with her in the room while she's playing and Adeline came in and we chat for awhile. Then she slowly adapt to the enviroment and I just sit there and watch here, chat with the guest she invited also and around 5pm plus it was the cake cutting time. The cake is really nice and beautiful.

Now, I shall let the photo do the blogging than.

 

 

 

  

 

 

After the party, I head to Serangoon with Shervelle.
Walk for awhile and then we went back home.

 

It was a tiring yet well-spend day with the girl.

 

 

 

Stress? Depressed? I don't know.

Hello 

I'm going to update the space again but this time round, it's just some emotional rant because I really need to rant to someone but I don't know who I can turn to now thus I'm right here blogging it out so probably at least I would feel better? I don't know, but well better than nothing.

 

Yes, I'm feeling super STRESS !

I don't know where does this stress comes from all of a sudden or probably because how my friend analyse my life and future to me and I come to know that I have live too easily and stress-free from the past 20 years of my life. I don't know why did I trusted the wrong person and my life just goes "pooof" like that with two kids and not financial stable or you can say I just simply eat grass every month, please don't think that I'm a very rich woman.

I am stress about kids, money and love. 

I didn't know that I would be this stress and think a lot about it because no one ever in my life would analyse it and tell me everything but he just simply did and whatever he says really make sense to me and I really agree to what he says a lot. However, I am just too slow to have realize it and end up where I am today now but of cos my two kids are still a bless and no regrets to me.

There's a lot things running through my mind that I couldn't use words to express myself and even tell anyone because it's just too much that I can't stop having them on my mind and I realize that I actually don't have the time for love at all and also, because I've two kids it's never easy for me to balance out between my 2 kids and love. I know myself that kids will definitely be more important than love and thus, I hope I could balance them as much as I can.

 

Anyway, all the stress I am facing now is actually stress that I give myself but sigh, never mind I will just keep trying and do my best to change to the best. :') I know if I've the will and determination, I will be able to do it  and of cause I must do it! JIAYOU.

Disclaimer: It's going to be a personal emotional ranting.

 

I'm fading away.

I don't know where is my real smile

I am tired, be it mentally, physically or emotionally.

I am trying my best to recover from the injuries that I have fall from,

it's not easy but I am recovering slowly now.

To have fail in marriage, 

I really have phobia going/entering another relationship;

I wish I can just let it go so cool and get into another relationship,

but there's so much that comes to consideration.

I think probably, I have become matured

My mindset ain't like the past anymore,

I don't just think once or twice, 

but I just keep asking myself whenever I want to do something

Because of my Princesses,

I have to think for them also as they're just too important.

I won't want my decision to hurt them or stuff like that thus it's very important.

 

I'll break these chains that bind me, so happiness will find me.

Being loved is really the best thing

but I just can't keep reminding myself about the past that I have,

and also the failed marriage that I have been through

There's fear, there's worries,

none of these fears and worries can let me off

I keep reminding myself the scar that's left deeply in my heart 

I keep reminding myself the pain that I've been through

so, I will not get hurt/pain anymore 

Accepting a new relationship needs a lot of courage,

when I accept that relationship, I don't give in all,

because I worry that hurt might just hits me again.

Anyway

to remind myself everyday about pain

is what I am doing now and always.

BELLOOOOOO ~

It's been weeks since I've update the space, I'm really sorry about it but it's because I don't really have much time to do so now. As for now, my life is work, home, my girls and rest. That's all about it. Nothing much to elaborate about what happen everyday because I spend most of my day doing the same thing thou it's tiring but I'm still doing good :)

 

Recently something good did happen but I'm not going to mention. If you follow me on Twitter, I think you will know but whatever it is, I'm still very happy with my life right now because it's just too perfect with my two little Princess. (: Going home after work and hearing my eldest to call me Mommy and run to me is really the best! (Y) All my tiredness just went off and my energy is here to play with her.

I really have no idea what more should I update about. I will try to get more ideas to blog about. Anyway, please follow me on Twitter/Instagram for more updates. I don't think I will blog that often anymore. But please still visit my site okay? Love you all. Let me end with a few photos than! :D

  

 

It's pretty late now. I shall end here, love you all :)