I'm better off without you, I won't let you'll bring me down.

I'm better off without you, I won't let you'll bring me down.

For someone who doesn't matter at all to bring me down, it's not easy at all.

 

From my title, you can see that I'm blogging for some nuisances people who is trying to be funny in my life. I don't know what these people want and what they are trying to do but I am seriously so much happier than before. Like yes, really happy and smiling . No longer tearing or waiting for your reply because I've finally let it down and put this matter back ahead. 

I know, many of you ask why didn't I gave him another chance but who know exactly how much chances did I give him and how much did I gave to him ? Have you all ever thought for me, if I were to keep on forgiving him because of Shervelle, then who'll ever spare a thought for me? I'm really so tired and sick of this forgiving and giving chance. It's not the first time at all. 

Everyone tell me I'm truthful, brave and strong but I am not at all. I still do feel upset, I still do feel like tearing but I teared because I feel guilty and bad to bring Shervelle to the world and let her have no Daddy in such a young age but I rather I do it now than I keep dragging and till she grow up and know what's happening, and she turn bad girl and etc. I don't want to sees that. 

Yes, I stay truthful, why ? Because I have nothing to hide. I am brave, why ? Because I have to be. I stay strong , why? Because if I wasn't strong, then who's Shervelle going to depend on? I am the only pillar that she really have. She lose her Daddy, I know and believe she can't afford to lost her Mommy as well. Therefore, I'll have to be brave and strong as to hold on to my tears, look at the sky and tell myself, everything will be fine.

After this matter happen, I realize I'm done with it and I'm stronger and braver . I'm no longer like the past , for small things I cry and for him I tears over again . I did not when I was so determined of leaving him . Fate has ended, if it was meant to be , no matter how far and long you're separated , it'll still comes back to you . Therefore, I am very determined to leave because I'm tired and worn out.

该放下的，还是得放下。我已经学会怎么放下了。

他也慢慢的离开了我心里的位置。