My 小B ! ♥

Questions/Doubts about 小B ! ♥

I will answer all your doubts and clear your questions.

1 - How did you get pregnant.

It's definitely I had sex with him that's why I am pregnant , if not did I just find any other guys and fuck and got pregnant ? 

2 - How come you'd sex with him when the two of you're getting divorce.

I had sex with him on the early of September when I forgive him and decided to get back with him, however he repeat the same mistake on the mid of September, that's why I wanted to divorce and leave him.

3 - Are you going to get back with your Husband.

No, we are not getting back together. We're going on separation for three years. If he change and settle down, manage to prove my family that he is worth forgiving and my family forgives him and willing give him a chance, there will be a possible of getting back together .

4 - Do you know it's going to be tough for you alone.

Yes, I know it will be tough and this ain't easy but I'm glad that at least I have my family and friends to accompany me through this tough journey therefore I really appreciate all the helps and support from them.

5 - What's your plan.

I am going to give birth to my second joy, 小B is God's gift. 小B has a live, I want to bring 小B to this world with 大B. I believe this two precious Bs will be my happiness and strength to move on and on, to become stronger and to word hard. After giving birth to 小B, I will work even harder and might change a job to obtain a higher pay to support them. Concentrate on my work and then live happily with them.

I hope I answer all those questions on your mind, therefore stop asking me all this question.

MY SECOND JOY!

Date : 28th September 2012

Time : 01:25 PM

 

Hello Lovelies !

From the photo above, I guess you all know what I am going to blog about already ? ^^

HELL YES, I AM PREGNANT AGAIN .

I am happy and fill with excitement, but at the same time I am kind of lost ;

because as you all know my situation right now is rather complicated.

This blog post is published out late because I still haven't tell my parents , therefore I was waiting till I tell my parents then I'll announce it . Therefore let me just blogged how did I find out than :) I'm such a happy lady and I always will be . Haha . 

How I found out my second joy :

On the 28th Sept'12, I was really tired and I whatsapp my leader that I wanted to take two hours of time off , so I have to reach work at 1030am. Before heading to work, I went to Guardian at Buangkok - I bought Clearblue Digital Pregnancy Test Kit. Why would I buy? Because I am late for my menses for a week and I've this pregnant feeling and plus, I'm feeling nausea and vomiting almost for days already so I was rather worry and thinking if I were.

I bought and head to work. Reaching my work place, I went to the toilet and tested. Because this digital is much more different than the normal one, so I was waiting and "pregnant" came out , so I thought couldn't be must be the result haven't come out because it says need to wait for 3 mins. However, 2-3 weeks come out! I was really shocked.

I called him, he was rather happy and I was rather lost still.. I book appointment at Thomson Woman's Clinic at Sengkang for ultrasound scan, however I think it was too early that the doctor could see anything therefore he ask me to do another urine test, I was like is it that the kit was wrong ; so I was went to took the urine test and went back to doctor - he say I'm having second joy but very early stage:)

After that, headed home and told my parent about it .

I know many of you must be wondering if we're getting back together, we are not because can no longer trust him after forgiving him and he did it again . Therefore, we're going for separation for 3 years and if he would to have change , and get forgiveness from my parents there might be a chance that we're getting back . For now , he can only have to work hard and get back all the trust and forgiveness .

If not, I will live my life with my two precious, family and friends because I no longer need him like I used to . I am no longer that lady that you all once known. I am much more stronger than I am before . No matter how tough this road might be, I will never abort or ever think of it . No matter how hard life is going to be now being on my own with two precious , I will work really hard and stay strong and stronger.

I will never regret having this second joy because I'm happy. It's a God's gift. I'm blessed and lucky to have the baby because I know there are people out there which wanted and couldn't have it therefore , I always cherish things that I have and feel blessed and be positive (:

With loves,

Till next time , see ya .

Everything happen for a reason.

No matter how tough the path ahead of me is,

I believe that God make this road for me and I believe it happens for every reason.

 

Hello Lovelies!

 Thank God, It's Friday and I think it's a happy friday for me!

Let me just briefly blog about what happen this week for me? J Anyway everything is going very smoothly but yes, I’m a bit stressed actually. However I know everything happen for a reason and maybe its fate yeah. All I need to do now I think will be to be happy and to rest well ~ :)

On the Monday, 24th September -

I went to work as usual, but I was at the other company because one of my colleague is sick. I was really busy that day but I was really looking forward to work end because Mommy took Bibi to my work place to find me, they waited for me to end work and we went to Serangoon NEX to meet my sister and had our dinner at DIAN XIAO ER. Was a very great day ! ^^

 

On the Tuesday & Wednesday, 25th & 26th September -

Work as usual. It wasn't a very busy day, because I was located at the block instead of the company. Haha. It's a bit complicated uh , but never mind. LOL. Headed home right after work and Mommy took BibiS down and waited for me at the bus stop! It was really happy to see her there waiting for me each day after work. This feeling can never be explained till when you're a parents ! :)

 

On the Thursday, 27th September -

I'm back to the company because my collegue fall sicks. It wasn't really so busy compare to Monday. Everything was going on smooth and I went off early and reach home early ! I saw my baby girl waiting for me again! Home, and I took photos with her. Does she look more like me now? She's very naughty girl because she only bully me, which sometimes really annoyed me much but still I love her many! Because she's my happy pill! Played with her, and we went off to sleep ! ^^

 

 

As for today, 28th September -

I took two hours time off. Headed to work and bought carrot cakes & spring roll for lunch. It was rather a happy and stressed day for me. Well, anyway I'll relieve my stress tonight after work! :D Therefore, I can't wait for work to end. Lucky I'm at the company today, although it's a little busy, but at least I can go off early! Like 15 mins earlier. ^^ I can't wait to see my baby when I'm home ! Miss her so much !

 

Alright, till the next time.

With loves. 

It's all worthwhile.

Being a single mommy is hard,

but my precious baby make every second worth it.

 

Hello to all my lovelies! :)

I'm gonna blog about my thoughts again, so please still bear with me alright?

 

I'm a Single Mommy and I'm proud that I am a Mommy, because my precious bibi make every single of my mommy moment a very happy and worth one. She is a very healthy, adorable and smiley girl that makes me feel blessed to have her in my life . From the day that I give birth to her, she make me feel that my life is filled with colors and happiness that's why, no matter if I'm a Single parent or not it doesn't really matter. What matter is she is happy and she grow up healthy .

The moment when she is born, I'm born too.
The woman is existed but the mother never. A mother is something absolutely new and because of that , from being a girl to a woman - I've learnt a lot throughout the process . From all this obstacles that I've go through, it makes me a stronger and independent woman, becoming more matured and looking further at my future with my precious girl.


Now that I am a Mommy already, I am never really alone in my thoughts because a mother always has to think twice - once for herself and once for her child. Therefore, even though I've made the decision of being a single parent, I did thought for my child too. I know it's not fair and pity for her to grow up in a incomplete family but still, in the future I'll always explain to her why is that so and teach her to be positive and never let her feel different.
 

 I know that the path ahead of me might be tough and might not be smooth , but I'll still stand strong and be brave to overcome everything that is coming to me .. Though now I might have a hard time putting down everything , but at least I am trying bits by bits . It all take times isn't it ? I believe one day, I will be able to let go and put down because time will heal everything .

 As for now, what I have got to do is make sure that Shervelle is growing up being healthy and good , loved and blessed that's all enough for me. As long as for her future, I'll definitely work harder than before to make sure that she has a better future. I know it can  be rather tiring but at least at the end of the day, I know bibi will definitely smile and says, "I love you, Mommy." For that, it's all worthwhile.

Till than ,
With loves.

 

Everything will be fine.

For Shervelle, 

I'll overcome all these obstacles & toughness that I've to face, just to ensure happiness for her.

 

I don't know how should I start the blog post , so please just bear with me alright ?

On the May 2011, I found out her exist. At that point of time, she was already 12 weeks plus. That night when I saw her on the ultra scan, I was so excited and nervous . Heart almost popped out. & during the scanning , the doctor tell me mostly likely will be baby girl, I'm even excited because I can be best friend with her , but still he can't confirm that is babygirl but I'm still happy because I'm a Mommy already.

After the detailed scan, she was confirmed as baby girl! I was so excited, looking for names for her, looking at all the clothing that I could buy for her and etc. She stayed in my stomach till November 2011, on the 22nd November'11 night, I endure all the pains and uncomfortable till I gave birth to her on the 23rd Nov'11 morning ! It was really blessed to see her being a healthy girl ! :)

After giving birth to her, I've to still endure the pain during the first few weeks but it's all worthwhile, because whenever she give me a smile , it just boost me up so magically . Even though after birth, I still have to endure the back aching but it's really worthwhile like I say :') Till now, that I see her grow up slowly . Learning more and more things .

From flipping over to turning over, to moving forward to crawling . From crawling to sitting also , from there to holding up and stand , till now she can stand on her own for awhile . It's so fast , another two more months , she'll be one years old . Which mean, one year has just passes so fast with her :')

Shervelle is my strength now. She's the reason that keep me going on , the reason why I am still standing so strong here ! :') For her happiness and smile , I will work hard and love her more than anyone else does though I might get tired at times ; but still I love her more than anyone does . No one would ever break us apart because our bond is already made when she's inside me ♥

 Till than,

with loves ♥♥♥

I'm better off without you, I won't let you'll bring me down.

I'm better off without you, I won't let you'll bring me down.

For someone who doesn't matter at all to bring me down, it's not easy at all.

 

From my title, you can see that I'm blogging for some nuisances people who is trying to be funny in my life. I don't know what these people want and what they are trying to do but I am seriously so much happier than before. Like yes, really happy and smiling . No longer tearing or waiting for your reply because I've finally let it down and put this matter back ahead. 

I know, many of you ask why didn't I gave him another chance but who know exactly how much chances did I give him and how much did I gave to him ? Have you all ever thought for me, if I were to keep on forgiving him because of Shervelle, then who'll ever spare a thought for me? I'm really so tired and sick of this forgiving and giving chance. It's not the first time at all. 

Everyone tell me I'm truthful, brave and strong but I am not at all. I still do feel upset, I still do feel like tearing but I teared because I feel guilty and bad to bring Shervelle to the world and let her have no Daddy in such a young age but I rather I do it now than I keep dragging and till she grow up and know what's happening, and she turn bad girl and etc. I don't want to sees that. 

Yes, I stay truthful, why ? Because I have nothing to hide. I am brave, why ? Because I have to be. I stay strong , why? Because if I wasn't strong, then who's Shervelle going to depend on? I am the only pillar that she really have. She lose her Daddy, I know and believe she can't afford to lost her Mommy as well. Therefore, I'll have to be brave and strong as to hold on to my tears, look at the sky and tell myself, everything will be fine.

After this matter happen, I realize I'm done with it and I'm stronger and braver . I'm no longer like the past , for small things I cry and for him I tears over again . I did not when I was so determined of leaving him . Fate has ended, if it was meant to be , no matter how far and long you're separated , it'll still comes back to you . Therefore, I am very determined to leave because I'm tired and worn out.

该放下的，还是得放下。我已经学会怎么放下了。

他也慢慢的离开了我心里的位置。

It's a Pinkish Monday ! ^^

It's Monday - It's a back to work day!
I'll be positive because if Monday ain't here, there won't be Friday & weekends.

 

Hello Earthlings! ^^

 

It's Monday once again. Last week, I ain't even at work at all. I was on Sick leave due to my toothache, because of my wisdom tooth! ): Have to settle it asap also, sian. I got so many unhappy happenings to me lately, but I guess all will be over soon! Like what I say, the rainbow after the rain! :') Aftermath, I did went to work on the Wednesday but I took urgent leave to settle some personal matter. Afterwhich, I took 2.5 days of no pay leaves to find Lawyer and settle all those shits! Sian, but worth it.

 

Yes, I'm at work now but today, I located at Level 5 of where I am working instead of the reception counter at Level 1 . It's a very sudden inform too as the lady working here is taking urgent leave. LOL. Anyway, yes. Back to work and time is passing really fast up here, because there's much work to do. LOL, but I still can blog. Haha, because I am free now and I take awhile to update also. A little bit by bit so yeah, of cause I can. The one thing I dislike working here is sometimes I can't even find the person I am looking for. HAHA. LOL.

 

I think the time here will be really fast and I'll be able to go home and see my baby girl! ^^

 

 

 

Samsung NX 1000 in Pink.

 

IT'S A FREAKING PINK CAMERA WHICH I EVER SEEN BEFORE, it's really nice ! OMG. The price is really nice also loh, hopefully someone can sponsor me :3 so I can use that to take photos on Shervelle's first birthday! Weee, pinkish! I like, but yes, save money is much more important. It's a want, not a need therefore don't have to spend such money also. I just wanted to share because it's in pink! HAHA.

I'm super pink lover, next time I want decorate Shervelle & my room very nice. Pretty pretty pink! With Glow in the night Starry and Moon with lightnings . Wow. I can imagine now, it'll be really nice ~ Hoho . Can't wait till Shervelle grow up and I'll rent a small room flat to live with her near my parents! Hehe. Because she'll grow up and eventually, she'll need a own space of hers by than.

 

There's so much things that I need to do once the divorce matter is done, time is not enough for me now. Haha. If I can have more time, it will be the best ! (Y) Okay, I shall stop here and get back to work. I'll try my best to update every twice/thrice a week. Stay tuned to my next update yeah! :D

 

With loves. Take care.

 

I will be fine .

Time will heal me from everything that I've go through,

time will take me to a happier places which fills with Rainbows even without rain.

 

It was a very nice weekend spend, though I was busy settling all the divorce documents. I know many of you asked me , why don't give him another chance - I can't blame this people that says that because many of you doesn't know what's going on and not many know what's the truth behind this but let bygones be bygones , I also don't wanna mention anymore .

Yes, I spend Thursday, Friday going to Legal Aid for the divorce documents but my application wasn't approve due to I'm not 21 , therefore Daddy & Mommy are the main applicants and the income are high , so now I would have to find a private lawyer which going to cost me a bomb but I know it's all worthwhile for me to end all the misery and pains! :) I know I'll be much more happier ! :D

On the Friday Evening - I went back to his place to get back some of my important documents which I forgot to take on the Wednesday noon . Aftermath went down to Aunt's place. Rested and visit another Aunt to consult her about the matters and I'll have to do it fast which is most likely this week or next. I will not be dragging anymore because I want to feel happiness and relieved.

Head back to Aunt's place. Rested and the next day just arrived. Had breakfast at the market. Went back home with BibiS, Grandmother and Nicole because it was raining. After that, went to Lot 1 with Sister and  bought one pants for her birthday present, left one more top! :) Headed to meet Mommy, Aunt, Grandma and all opposite Lot 1.

Because they're having events for the Mid Autumn Festival. Didn't managed to take photos because I was carrying BibiS. She was amused by everything, like Lion Dance, Balloons, and etc. Haha. Damn cute. People around her confirm will play with her and says she's cute ! Many like her smiles with dimples ! Heh. But after awhile, she just fell asleep - so noisy but she still can sleep ! (Y) Power.

On the Sunday - Shervelle turn 10th months old! Another two more months, she'll be one years old. That's pretty fast. Heh. I'm still preparing her first birthday, next I'll be heading to Pine Garden and request them to help me do a Pororo Cake for her ! :D Omg, I'm excited and now, I've to come out with the guest themes! Whether for them to wear just pink, white, blue, yellow because Pororo are just filled with these colors .. Hmmm. Headache.

I'll also need do small "Thank you" gift for the guest to bring home. Shall think if I should if I have the time to! LOL. Buffet and BBQ , which catering and all. Hmm. Headache ah. Haha. Too many things to prepare already ! LOL.

Okay, so back. I slept till noon then I was awake. After that, take care of BibiS, till evening and we'd a small birthday celebration for my cousin's Glenn. Hope he will be a good boy and not his parent worry so much for him already and also all the best in his studies. Aftermath, headed home around 7pm plus. Reach home, bathed and look after BibiS. Home is still always the best! 

Alright, till than . Tomorrow I still needs to work!
I hope from now, every single day of mine will be this happy! ^^

Shervelle's One Year Milestone! :)

♔ SHERVELLE , 欣颖 ♔

 Born on the 23rd of Nov'11 in the morning

 At KK Hospital. Gestation period: 40 Weeks

 Natural birth with Epidural

♔ On the Birth Day ♔

Weighing at 3.144kg   Height of 49cm   Head circumference of 33cm

♔ ONE MONTH OLD ♔  

 

Weighing at 4.7kg   Height of 53.5cm   Head circumference of 37cm
- At this point of time, she can look at you.  - Moving around, kicking around! 
♔ TWO MONTHS OLD ♔ 

 Weighing at 4.7kg   Height of 53.5cm    Head circumference of 37cm 
- Able to lift her head up and trying to do sit up.  - Making funny faces. - Make more noises than before.
♔ THREE MONTHS OLD ♔ 

 

- Trying to flip and flip when she's 3 months 2 weeks! - Smile when you play with her. - Likes to move around when you take her photo. - Able to pinch and make more noises.
♔ FOUR MONTHS OLD ♔ 

 Weighing at 7.07kg   Height of 62cm  
- She's a very smiley girl. - Able to flip both side. - Still making more and more noises & funny faces! - Knows how to Hi-5 and nod head to head with you.
 ♔ FIVE MONTHS OLD ♔ 

 Weighing at 8.14 kg   Height of 67.5cm    Head circumference of 42cm 
- Using the Walker and she's able to walk very stable. - She'll go after you , if you're holding on to food. - Will get shy if we look at her. - - Have her porridge already. - Take some bread too. - Likes to look at you when you are eating.    ♔ SIX MONTHS OLD ♔

- Able to sit for quite long already.

- Took the baby rusk to eat and will get angry if you took from her.

- Still making lots of funny noises.

- She's really sticky to my Mommy !

- If your hand reaches out , she'll open her arms and lean forward for you to carry.

- Take her own leg and bite

- Tossing here and there.

- Whining a lot and blabbering a lot also .

 ♔ SEVEN MONTHS OLD ♔

- She likes to go out that when you go out & you didn't bring her, she'll cry.

- She will follow you everywhere, if you're going out (too clever or what)

-  She drink 5oz now and had a small bowl of porridge 

- Very naughty now, drink milk need to cry first before she drink 

- like to listen to songs, and also Pororo

- tell her:" come sayang" , she'll stop turning her head and let you kiss 

- will recognize people already , sticky to Mommy

♔ EIGHT MONTHS OLD ♔

 

- drink 6oz of milk + porridge in the noon

- starts teething already 

- understand the meaning of :"come, mommy kiss"

- can crawl a little bit already 

- can wave hello and goodbye already

- able to stand on her own for awhile  

- able to walk two steps on her own

- scream and shout a lot 

♔ NINE MONTHS OLD ♔

 Weighing at 9.67 kg   Height of 73cm    Head circumference of 44cm 

- able to stand on her own for a longer time

- understand what you saying

- can wave goodbye and hello plus friend kiss 

- eating more and more (hahaha)

- mumbling a lot now , talking a lot also

- crawl as much as before a lot already

- sticky to my mom a lot 

♔ TENTH MONTH OLD ♔ 

 

- can wink at you when you say wink and do the wink

- can say mum-mum when she sees food

- know how to kiss goodbye using hand

- lie down quietly on your leg when you clean her ear

- able to hold the milk bottle on her own

- able to walk on her own for few steps

♔ ELEVENTH MONTHS OLD ♔

 

- sick, kena Hand Food Mouth Disease :(

- crawl up to chair

-claps hand when listen to songs

♔ ONE YEARS OLD ♔

 Weighing at 10.39 kg   Height of 78.1cm    Head circumference of 45cm  - able to walk further distance - can call ahma and mama very clearly  - pick the phone and put at ear to say "wei" (hello) - take the food to you and ask you open - automatic kiss you on your mouth to get something from you
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(Last update : 29th November 2012. )  

Shervelle has finally turn one. It's really amazing and fast.  One year just passed. Let's look forward to her milestone towards two years old !