A Mother.

What is a Mother? What does a Mother means to you?

 

Disclaimer: This blog post are just a personal point of view and ranting.

 

I wasn't quite sure about what a Mother is suppose to be like. I look at my Mom, Aunts amd people around me who is a Mother. There're Mother who are great and responsible but there Mother who are bad and irresponsible too. A role of Mother seems easy to be one, but not until the day I gave birth to Shervelle than I know that it wasn't easy at all. It was a difficult yet proud job. (Y)

 

Hereby, I wanna give a thumbs up to all Mother who are working really hard as a Mother and working woman, and two thumbs up for Single Mother like me because it was never an easy task but it's definitely a proud and worthy task. (Y)

 

I was a single Mother since September 2012, a single Mother for One year plus. I decided to become a single Mother because my ex-Husband was having affair outside and it was too much that when I forgiven him, he still doesn't admit his mistake and change but acting behind my back with the mistress, but well, it's all over now and I'm glad I made that choice of leaving him if not I wouldn't have found the real happiness, the one that love me and my kids so much like his own.

 

Single parenting is not easy, sometimes, stressful and tired but it has always been a enjoyable task. A single mother plays the role of both, a Father and a Mother. We tries hard to divide our time to fulfill all our duties as a Mother and a working woman. We strives to give the best for our kids; all single-handedly. Being a single Mother is a no easy job but many of us did it.

 

No one here is born to be a Mother or taught to be a Mother. We learn as we do, we learn as we are. The moment when we carried our child in us, we're a Mother. We are no longer just ourselves, the role of a Mother was never existed in us until we have a Child.

 

 

I was a Mother when I am 18 years old.
And now that I'm turning 21 years old, I am already a Mother of two.

 

At that point of time, 18 years old and I am already a Mother, many consider us as young parent but I don't think so. We're young at the numbers not our mindset and heart. We know that being a Mother at 18 years old is not young at all but probably because of the generation now, we're being looked at as a young Mother. For me, I just don't think so, because when my daughter turn 18 years old, I am already 36 years old, how is that young?

 

I may be right, I may be wrong, but this are just my point of view.

 

The moment when I knew I was pregnant, I felt excited, happy yet lost and troubled. Excited and happy because I am a Mother, I have a little heart inside me beating with me. Happy that I thought I will be spending my life with the one I loved the most but I was wrong but I am still happy right now because my life is doing even better without him. I was lost because I didn't know how I should told my parent about it and troubled that how am I going to support the Child when I am still a student that is not financially stable yet with no savings. A lot of mixed feelings, but until now I have never regretted being a Mother, in fact I enjoy and love being a Mother.

 

 

The moment when I knew I have them, without second thought about it, I decided that I would give birth to them. I never want to kill a innocent life, I don't bear to let go that little hand. Though when I have my second daughter, there are people who asked me to abort it, to sell it, to let others adopt it; but how can I, how will I bear to? I don't want to. I might not be able to give them luxury life, I might not be able to give them what other kids might have but I am trying very hard, striving very hard to give them the best in their life. For the past one year plus, I have been raising them on my own income with some help from my families.

 

However, being a single Mother; I can't help to feel guitly. For that I'm not able to give them a complete family, this is one that I am really sorry and guilty about. But I am sure that one day, my daughters will understand what's going on and why is that happening. For that I wasn't the one that make them fatherless. Their father was the one not cherishing the chances that I gave.

 

Marriage might have failed, but I'm definitely not a failed Mother. I do what a Mother has to do, though there are still spaces for improvement and to do a better job but I'm definitely better than their Father. After being a Mother, everything in my life have change. It's not just about myself but about my Child. They're the priority, they're the one that I never thought that I would really sacrifice so much for; no matter what I am doing or what I am going to do, they're the one that I have to spare a thought for first. Even that, I'm dying from hunger to save that few dollars for their stuff.

 

Motherhood is amazing. Being a Mother is not an easy job. It's a 24/7 unpaid job and it has no off days. However you just feel so contented and satisified when you hear the laughter from your Child; that's priceless. I never regret being a Mother at this time though I might have lost the freedom but these are nothing compared to my Child's happiness.

 

 

I love one of the song - In my daughter's eyes by martina mcbride.

The lyrics is meaningful, let me share with you a few lines of the meaningful lyrics.

 

In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero. I am strong and wise and I know no fear but the truth is plain to see she was sent to rescue me. This miracles God gave to me give me strength when I am weak. And when she wraps her hand around my finger, it puts a smile in my heart. Everything becomes a little clearer, I realize what life is all about. It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough, it's giving more when you feel like giving up. I've seen the light; it's in my daugter's eyes.