I wanna stay strong, no matter how tough life is going to be.


 

I think December ain't a very good month for me, 
therefore I'm wishing that January will be a better month for me.

It's a very tiring and sick month for me. I hope everything will just end real fast. Because my girl and I are both so sick. Coughing badly. & my asthma attack me again! I guess this pregnancy ain't a easy one at all, but not to blame my lil'baby but myself, because I didn't take good care of myself, sorry baby:(


It was Christmas, 2 days ago -
I'd a little celebration over at Aunt's place on the Christmas eve because it was Cousin Nicole's birthday. Gift exchange and surprisingly, I did receive some chocolates and a Melody cup from my aunt! :D And I did bought Christmas gift this year because I wanna share the joy with people I love ! :) Bought earpiece for brother, and 2 pieces of T-Shirt for sister! :)

& Oh, I mention that baby girl & I was sick. Spend quite a lot seeing doctors already! :( Just hope we'll recover real soon. Especially baby girl, because I don't wanna see her suffer! I don't mind spend such money, but I rather not spend the money because I don't want her to be sick! Its really heart aching to see that she's feeling uncomfortable! :(

Anyway, December is ending real soon. In another 4 days time! That's really fast. In a mood to welcome 2013 already. Wondering if anyone would ask me out for count down, but I think I'll be lazy to do so too, probably I would just spend the night with my daughter or bring her out to see firework, if only she recover! 

& When Jan 2013 arrive, this first two week I'll be pack with appointment. First week will be baby girl's injection and then second week will be my appointment! I can't wait to see my lil'baby! Hope baby will be good to let me see what's the gender! Haha. Health is still important, boy or girl is alright for me! :)

Gonna stay strong for everything that happen! 
I'm gonna conquer them all! 

Love you all, till than, see ya next time! 

17 weeks!

I'M IN MY 17 WEEKS NOW .
 
Hello there! I'm 17 weeks pregnant now :)
Went for my check up, this time round is just for my report and see the doctor. Nothing much. Didn't see my baby much too, only see the little heartbeat! Heh. The baby are doing good and healthy ! ^^ I'm very happy as long as the baby is alright and doing good. 

Everything are doing good. I'll be having my next appointment on the 10th Jan 2013. In another 2 weeks time! This time round I'll see my baby on scan! Heh. Hopefully lil'baby will let me see if my baby is a girl or boy! *pray hard* I've people who told me the baby is boy and also girl, but more on boy. They ask me what gender what I wish for, like I always say, I'm alright with both gender as long as baby is healthy! 

& the next appointment will be on the 11th Jan'13 because on the 10th Jan'13, there's no slot for doctor therefore I've to make two trips. No choice! :( But never at least I can rest. I really can't wait for the day! Please arrive faster! :D

& On the another note, I think I'm falling sick. Throat is in pain now and I feel a little feverish. Hopefully I'll alright tomorrow cos I'm feeling drowsy even though I didn't take any drowsy medicine! :( I DON'T LIKE TO BE SICK. NOT NICE.

Alright, till than I shall blog! See ya !

Shervelle is sick ! :(

My precious love is sick with fever attacking :(
I pray that she'll recover as soon as possible, I don't want see her suffer.

 

Went out with babyS on the Sunday, and end up in the evening she'd fever! 
I realize she has fever when I touches her hand when I was about to hold her, then I took her temperature, it was about 37 degree to 38 degree. Faster take cooling pad and wet towel to put on her head and under her armpit. After that, feed her medicine and she went to sleep later in the night.

In the morning, Mommy told me that to bring her to the doctor. Took urgent leave and rush her to doctor as her fever has not subside. :( Doctor gave medicine, and then she went sleeping. After that, evening time I measure her temperature, it went up to 39 degree! I was really worry! :( Wanted to bring her to Hospital but I'm worry they bathe her cold water! 

Therefore, I head back to the clinic with Mommy. & her fever subside to 37.5 degree. I hope it'll drop soon tomorrow, still under observant, don't feel like sleeping, just wanna look at her and make sure she sleep well. 

I feel that I'm such a fail Mommy, babyS is so small and she has to go through so much with me. What I can do now is to make sure I pay back her with double loves, and everything. To tell her what happen, what's wrong and right, to teach her everything that is right and not wrong, make sure she's growing well and healthy! 

BabyS, no matter what - Mommy will never let go your hand, no matter how tough this journey is going to be, I'll protect everything that harms and hurt you. I definitely will, because you're my precious gems! 

Please recover soon, if not pass it to Mommy because I'm willing to take the illness for you, instead of leet




FUCK OFF :)

 

I was wondering what should I update on my blog.

Maybe I should update something about some one. 

One who is so great at telling lies and even to her own friends, or maybe her friends cover the backside for her too. They're cowards who ask me out, but till now no show up at all and also, they're one that ask me out but they don't want to tell me time & venue. Because they want to sudden appear and surprise me. Haha.

I don't understand. Being a mistress, a third party, she feel so proud and feels no wrong at all. Same goes to her friend who are actually supporting and acting with her. Haha. I wonder if Karma will hit, I guess it will. Since she likes to be, I hope the rest of her life she can only be a woman being hidden up. LOL, no point what since she likes married man. Haha.

At the same time, I think she likes to act a lot too. I wonder why? She told me she's pregnant too, and the baby is my ex-Husband one? Okay. She told me not to tell anyone and especially not to him, why? I don't understand. If you don't want him to know, why you tell me? But whatever that case, I've already told him and he is very sure that you won't be pregnant with his baby, now who should I believe?

But anyway, I've eyes to see. I know what type of people are you because I see you done no good things before and I've proves. What about you? Proof? Any? Your scanning photo, wanna show it out to prove? I'm a Pregnant woman who went to KK Hospital too. For your information, I go through this for the second time so don't be like an idiot and tell me stupid thing. -_- 

If you are really pregnant, then congrats! Because babies are God's Gift. Don't take the gift as a joke and fool around. Don't tell me you're going through ectopic pregnancy. It's an offence to people who had gone through and it's insulting to the gift if you're not. I'll slap you on your face if you really lie about this. 

Another thing, she ever mention to me that I know how it feels like to lost a baby. Fuck you, seriously. My babies are good, they're healthy and I prayed for them. I thank God for giving me them. They grew well, and I never lost them! I was so pissed off when she mention that to me. Don't need to curse me, because I'm better off than you.

I don't target married guys. I don't be a third party. I feel ashamed for you, but I don't think you feel so, don't you? Ever since I know you have an affair with my ex-Husband, I've never really blame you and in fact, I even tell you to leave him because he ain't good, I talk so nicely to you but you're such a hypocrite. You do stuff hurt me, and act one innocent and push to your friend. What the fuck, seriously. 

I always know that both parties are at fault, because it takes two hands to clap. You claim that you didn't know he was married, but after that you know, but what did you do? You push him to divorce with me if not you'll leave but what did he do? He did not, but keep asking me for forgiveness. Don't you feel ashamed and stupid? I feel that for you.

I take you as friend again, but what? He dump you and you ain't happy. I told you I want to revenge, you say you wanna join in. I ask you to do it yourself, you told me what? He is more afraid to lose me. Okay, never mind. & Randomly, you told me to report to police about how he treats me and I didn't reply, you block me. Okay, by all means than.

I ain't a bad woman. Every of my friend know exactly how I treat him and what type of person I am. Though he treats me this way, I can forgive him and be his friend after all he is still the Dad of the children. I'm not those person that would go to the extend to report him and stuff. I'm 19, yes, I'm young and I don't deny I still got more to learn, but what about you? You're 22, but your mindset is still not even matured than me. 

If you are, then how about your Husband having affair out there? How do you feel? I doubt you'll feel upset, because you can do exactly the same thing. Come on la, you ask me to grow up, you grow up yourself first. 

If you are pregnant, concentrate on your pregnancy. Don't take the gift as a joke.
FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.


Emotional breakdown.

 

I'm tired, very tired from everything. 
From the world that I'm facing alone right now. This feeling sucks much.

Everything was alright, but mood swinging is kicking in. 
& I'm feeling really emotional nowadays but doesn't seems like anyone understand so.
Probably only pregnant Mommy would understand how it feels uh?

Second trimester has finally kick in like a few weeks ago. 
Nausea is getting lesser, but headache and fainting spell are kicking in.
I'll feel giddy and I get headache really easily. Lately got migraine also.
Hope it'll goes off soon, and I can feel the small movement from lil'baby, magical movement.

Most of the time when I feel baby's movement, are the time when I'm down.
I think baby is comforting me? Lending me the little shoulder that I need so badly.
This two days I ain't feeling good, no good at all. sigh.
I feel so so so tired, emotionally tired and pain.

Tears keep flowing in me, yet I endure not letting it out.
However I couldn't endure that long, 
the tiredness and pain that I'm going through don't allow me to.
I kept quiet because I doesn't want anyone to ask me, "what's wrong?".

♥ Shervelle's First Birthday Celebration!

It's Shervelle's First Birthday Celebration ! ♥



It was Shervelle's Birthday on the 23rd November ! 
I've prepare a small celebration for her at Costa Sand Resort, Pasir Ris ;
on the 24th November 2012 ! 

I went to check in on the 23rd Nov, Friday afternoon with my Mom. After that head home, and then had a small cake cutting at home first and then we headed back to chalet at the evening time with Shervelle, Grandma, Mommy, Sister and Daddy. Mommy & Grandma help to clean up first before letting Shervelle in the chalet as we worry that it was dirty. Aftermath, we waited for two of our aunt to arrive to overnight with Sister & I :) While the rest went home.

We'd a night there and it's terrible. I couldn't get to sleep despite being tired, maybe I'm too excited for the party tomorrow. Worry that it might not turn out well and also the weather and etc. Believe or not, I slept at 5 a.m plus and wake up at around 9 a.m plus. Imagine how tired I am, but I'm not feeling tired at all. 

Waited for Daddy, Mommy, Grandma & Shervelle to come:) & We started to decorate the place with Shervelle's name, Happy Birthday wording banner, snow flakes, fluffy bling bling and balloons! Thanks to all the help from Daddy and Mommy, Grandmother and Aunt! :) Appreciate the help so much! 

 

Some of my friend ask why did I use snow flakes? Because I'm doing Pororo Theme. & Pororo live in mountains that are cover with snow and he is a Penguin! ^^ Therefore snow flake just come to my mind! & I'm glad it matches well with Shervelle's name! :D 

 

 


After all the decorations, we rested and start preparing to bathe and doll my Princess up, and doll myself up too! Heh. Okay. Food came about 1530 hours, my aunt help me BBQ all the food without complaining, I'm very thankful for that! 

Around 1730 hours, all the guest that I've invited slowly arrive and Shervelle receive lots of presents and everyone just keep praising how pretty and cute she is! Haha. That lil girl must be really proud, and I'm proud too! ^^


 
The Pororo theme Cake that I order from Pine Garden. I receive a lot of good comments that the cake are delicious! ^^ As for the BBQ food, I've receive a lot of good comments too! I'm very glad that everything turn out well and food are nice too! :D I like the cake a lot, and Shervelle too! Each time I show her the cake photo, she'll mumble to herself and laughing! :D 

Thank you for all the red packets and presents that Shervelle has receive!
& I'm very thankful that all of you has attend, though some are not free in the last minute. For this, I thank everyone for making Shervelle's First Birthday a very wonderful ONE! 

 

WE L♥VE ALL OF YOU.
THANK YOU !
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