Disclaimer : This post filled with emotionals and it's a very personal one. You can go on reading or you can skip it and keep the comments to yourself. & I mention no name, please do not assume that it's you.
This is me,
I keep myself going even if I know that I'm tired.
It was a very pleasant week till I went over to someone's house this weekend.
Like I say in my Facebook, I've never seen such person in my life before. It was really a mistake and regret to know someone like that person. I've regret and feel that it was a mistake till last Friday, when that person ask me to go and die straight away NOW on the phone when we're discussing about maintainence fees for the children. & that person requested I should meet up with the Mom, if not he'll not agree to any terms of it. HAHA. What a joke. Seriously, why should I even meet up with the Mom? WHY AM I THE ONE WHO SHOULD GO OVER?!
I REJECTED.
So, he say alright he won't give the maintainence fee, I told him, I'm alright with it but with the condition that he has no rights to see the children. I'm no wrong. & He goes that he is alright with not seeing the children. Okay, deal than? What's the point seriously? & He say, if my family & I doesn't have the ability to feed her, just bring it out don't take money from him. Wow. I was wondering, does he not feel shameful when he says this? & Even think that if his parent helps "us" before?
FYI, I took the maintainence fee not because I can't feed my children, but it's because they were your child too! If you feel that they're not, then by all means and not agree of giving me the maintainence fees. I won't beg you for it, because it was my parent and relatives who help me in buying the food and stuff for my child. NOT YOU OR YOUR FAMILY! Get this clear.
I AM REALLY PISSED OFF.
From the day when I gave birth. My parents are the one who pay my hospital bills. My parents took only $350 from me to buy BabyS milk powder, pampers and stuff. Tell me, if you're a parent, you should know that $350 is not even enough at all. Calculate it. My parents are the one who went over to places to find cheaper milk powder, even if its cheaper by $1 or $2, they just try to help "us" save the money. If it's not enough, they'll help us fork out and never ask "us" to return at all. NEVER.
My aunt are the one that order stuff from online and sent over to our house and when she buy, she never ask me to return also. Milk powder, pampers, tidbits and clothings for BabyS, they are the one that help me with it. Never did they ask anything in return. Because they know that sometimes I don't have so much money.
However, those peoples who doesn't appreciate their help or thankful for their help; they take for granted and ask for more. Yeah, who? Those who doesn't help and talk big! Ask me to sign contract with them for 3 years, asking them to sponsor me ! WTF?! SERIOUSLY, have you ever met such person? I never once did, till I met them! JOKE.
I admit, I've married. I shouldn't go back to my parent's house too often or always but please think, if you were me to live under such a uncomfortable environment, how would you feel? If you're no one close to me, you won't know what's going on with my life there, it's really uncomfortable. At least, at my house I don't have to worry about anything because my Mom would help me with it.
" You won't know if you're close to me.
There are just too many things that are hidden behind the story, I'll never mention because at least I know what is respect and silent wins. I'll shut and not mention till they're really over my very limits. "
I would just say, it was my mistake and my poor babies are innocent. & I'll never let them bring me down, because they're not important at all to us, therefore they'll never enter in my life again. NEVER EVER!
Alrights, till than.
Loves.
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