Shervelle is One ! ♥

My lil Princess, Shervelle is One ♥

You've grow so much and learn so much in just one year,

Mommy love you.

 

On 22nd November 2011,

I remember I was in the labour ward waiting for her arrival. No pain, no contraction, nothing. After the midnight, when the doctor break my water bag, the pain came. It's really pain that I curled myself up, enduring not to take the epidural but in the end, I still took it because I can't take the pain at all. Waiting and waiting till the next morning :

On 23rd November 2011,

I hear her cries. I feel something came out from me. I feel amazing. & I was too tired to cry out my happiness. I just feel that the one I carry her for 9 months wondering how she looks like is out on Earth. When I sees her, I feel even amazed, couldn't believe that I'm a Mommy already. 

And now,

On 23rd November 2012,

My lil Princess has turn one years old.

Time really passes so fast and I still can't believe I'm a Mommy of Two already. I've went through so much with Shervelle. She never fails to bring me up in my life, giving me all the strength and smile to encourage me to move on. In this one year, I've see her grow. From flipping over, to crawling, to standing, to walking and to call me Mommy and give me kisses! I can't denied that I'm tired at times and stressed, but she make all these times worthwhile. :')

♥ Thank you, Shervelle ♥

Mommy will love you now, and always. 

Will always protect you till death do us apart, I promise.

Check up for lilB.

The first check up at KK Hospital for Lil'2ndJoy.

 

Hi there, I'm 14 weeks & 6 days pregnant. 

My baby is growing really well, but my weight still ain't gaining which I don't think it's good but Doctor told me for now it's alright because I'm feeling nausea and had no appetite that explains why I loses weight. I feel more comfort when I heard it, not so worry :) 

Took 4 tubes of blood. OMG. Had scanning for test too. Everything is alright and normal. I'm happy with the result too! :') Mommy came with me for the first check up and the second one is with my Sister! Was so tired because the check up falls one early before Shervelle's Birthday and on Shervelle's Birthday!

Will update again :)

I'll be right back~

 

Hello all lovely readers, 

I'll be right back after I'm done with Shervelle's birthday -

which is in 2 days times .

Let's hope that everything will be smooth!

& also stay tuned for many photos! ^^

No one can bring me down.

Disclaimer : This post filled with emotionals and it's a very personal one. You can go on reading or you can skip it and keep the comments to yourself. & I mention no name, please do not assume that it's you.

 

 

This is me,

I keep myself going even if I know that I'm tired.

 

It was a very pleasant week till I went over to someone's house this weekend.

 

Like I say in my Facebook, I've never seen such person in my life before. It was really a mistake and regret to know someone like that person. I've regret and feel that it was a mistake till last Friday, when that person ask me to go and die straight away NOW on the phone when we're discussing about maintainence fees for the children. & that person requested I should meet up with the Mom, if not he'll not agree to any terms of it. HAHA. What a joke. Seriously, why should I even meet up with the Mom? WHY AM I THE ONE WHO SHOULD GO OVER?!

 

I REJECTED.

 

So, he say alright he won't give the maintainence fee, I told him, I'm alright with it but with the condition that he has no rights to see the children. I'm no wrong. & He goes that he is alright with not seeing the children. Okay, deal than? What's the point seriously? & He say, if my family & I doesn't have the ability to feed her, just bring it out don't take money from him. Wow. I was wondering, does he not feel shameful when he says this? & Even think that if his parent helps "us" before?

 

FYI, I took the maintainence fee not because I can't feed my children, but it's because they were your child too! If you feel that they're not, then by all means and not agree of giving me the maintainence fees. I won't beg you for it, because it was my parent and relatives who help me in buying the food and stuff for my child. NOT YOU OR YOUR FAMILY! Get this clear.

 

I AM REALLY PISSED OFF.

 

From the day when I gave birth. My parents are the one who pay my hospital bills. My parents took only $350 from me to buy BabyS milk powder, pampers and stuff. Tell me, if you're a parent, you should know that $350 is not even enough at all. Calculate it. My parents are the one who went over to places to find cheaper milk powder, even if its cheaper by $1 or $2, they just try to help "us" save the money. If it's not enough, they'll help us fork out and never ask "us" to return at all. NEVER.

 

My aunt are the one that order stuff from online and sent over to our house and when she buy, she never ask me to return also. Milk powder, pampers, tidbits and clothings for BabyS, they are the one that help me with it. Never did they ask anything in return. Because they know that sometimes I don't have so much money.

 

However, those peoples who doesn't appreciate their help or thankful for their help; they take for granted and ask for more. Yeah, who? Those who doesn't help and talk big! Ask me to sign contract with them for 3 years, asking them to sponsor me ! WTF?! SERIOUSLY, have you ever met such person? I never once did, till I met them! JOKE.

 

I admit, I've married. I shouldn't go back to my parent's house too often or always but please think, if you were me to live under such a uncomfortable environment, how would you feel? If you're no one close to me, you won't know what's going on with my life there, it's really uncomfortable. At least, at my house I don't have to worry about anything because my Mom would help me with it.

 

" You won't know if you're close to me.

There are just too many things that are hidden behind the story, I'll never mention because at least I know what is respect and silent wins. I'll shut and not mention till they're really over my very limits. "

 

I would just say, it was my mistake and my poor babies are innocent. & I'll never let them bring me down, because they're not important at all to us, therefore they'll never enter in my life again. NEVER EVER!

 

Alrights, till than.

Loves.

I'm sick.

Hello there!

Yes, just as you see that image - I'm sick!

 

 

 

It's been really long since I've fall sick till so bad, that I am on 3 days of Medical Leaves. Yes, please imagine how bad that can be. At first it was just some sore throat and flu, & it went on coughing and feeling breathless because I can't cough out the phlegm. Yes, that's the most torturing part. & it leads to asthma. Yes, I've asthma history and it has been really long since I relapse till so bad. Spent about 100$ on doctor! Ergh!

 

For the 3 days, I just stay home sleeping and sleeping. I've got no strength at all. It's really bad that I can't even hold / carry my girl. All I can do was lie down on the bed, lie down at everywhere I go in the house. I spammed as much honey water and water to recover ! Yes, slowly I'm recovering.

 

Back to work yesterday and it was really bad. I keep vomiting. I throw up everything I had and I feel extremely uncomfortable and feel pain around my stomach! I am so tired, really so sick and tired of working and feeling so sick! It's terrible, but I can't do anything much! It's getting on my nerves of resigning but I can't because I've to feed my girl therefore I can only endure and endure!

 

This pregnancy is really terrible, not like the first . I just hope that the first trimster can just end as fast as possible which I think in another 1 or 2 weeks more. I can't be any happier than than.

 

Headed to work today, enduring the pain I had around stomach. I thought it was because I didn't eat, but no it's not. I ate and I still feel pain. Sweating somemore! It's really terrible but lucky my leader was understanding enough to let me off early, therefore I'm heading back at 1530hours later on. Just hope that the time would pass faster.

 

I still haven't order the BBQ Food for my girl ! Need to order this week and the next week, I'll have to go down to the cake shop to pass the figurine and for them to do the cakes! Make all the payment and everything. Ergh. Everything are so packed~ Next check up in another week more. Hope I can know the gender of it. There's a lot of things to do the next coming weeks!

 

Till than, I shall update the next time!

Loves.