Thank you

 

Hi, it's me updating the space again.
Actually I am kinda bored of how I always start because it's always the say with "Hi, it's me updating the space again"; I'm not sure how I should always start. Please bear with my boring update.

Before this update, I blog in a chinese post regarding about how I felt and to my surprise, I actually receive a total of 400+ blog views when I check this morning on the blog overview. I don't really receive such a number of views and I'm thankful for people whom really read and text me or leave me a comment asking me to be strong and all sorts of encouragement. It's very nice having you all leaving such encouraging comments.

I've talk about it with my friends because I'm really moody because of the questions that are coming up to me now, which is how should I tell my daughters their dad whereabout, how do I explain to them and will they be laugh and mock at in school because they don't have a Dad growing up with them? .... I really don't know and I've got no answer towards all the questions that are coming up to me because I've no experience in that and all the while I thought a Family should always have a Dad and Mom when I was young. As time goes by, when I grow up, I start to understand that there's all sort of problem existing and these problems are causing people to get tired and lost.

However, I guess what we will have to stay positive and strong to overcome all these problems.

Thus, having nice people like you all are really great because the encouragment given to me, gives me strength to grow stronger, to stay more positive. Without these encouragement, probably I might not be this strong anymore. So, thank you people :')

 

Let us all move on and not let our past control who we are today :)

对不起,我的宝贝。

Disclaimer: Please skip this post if you find my emotional rant are annoying.


那一年,当我发现你的时候,你已经13个礼拜。
第一次看到你时,我好紧张,也好期待,不知道看到你会是怎么样。。
当我在那个小小的荧幕上看到你时,我的心一直扑通扑通跳,我的眼泪也留了下来。
因为,我当妈妈了。。我是你的妈妈了。。
我不知道妈妈是一个怎么样的角色,直到那一天的那一年,我把你生下了。

 

好微妙的感觉,好神奇,那一天我还写了,“大家你们一定要爱你们的妈妈“。
因为那时候的那个痛和疲累是从来没体会过的。
慢慢的。。一天又一天地过去,你长大了 。。
也当了姐姐。。
我也发现了妹妹,新的生命又要诞生了。

 

经过了好多风风雨雨,妈妈那时候也忽略了你。。
老是躲起来哭,埋怨老天爷为什么那么对妈妈,对你们。。
直到有一天,妈妈醒了,发现原来这是老天爷给妈妈的一个考验。。
妈妈也开始想通了,我不再是我自己,而是你们的妈妈,不能再为自己想了。。

慢慢的也走出伤痛,走出我该走出的。。
慢慢的也觉得自己一个带着你们也行;因为妈妈还有好多爱我的人陪着我走这段路。。
他们给妈妈的鼓励,给妈妈的支持,妈妈这辈子都不会忘的。。


媽媽看了一部電視劇,戲裡頭她问到那个在单亲妈妈中成长的女孩儿,
你有沒有在沒有爸爸的時候,渴望有個爸爸?”

妈妈尝试向站在那角度想,但妈妈不知道。。。
為妈妈有爸爸陪伴著我長大,所以我不知道渴望有個爸爸是怎樣的感覺。
其实妈妈也很害怕,妈妈很害怕不知道当你知道你的爸爸不再是爸爸了,你们会怎么想?
当你朋友问到时,你们会不会难过。。。妈妈真的好担心。
而这也让媽媽有時覺得很愧疚 。。 因为妈妈没能给你们个完整的家。。。

但是妈妈會努力讓妳們收到滿滿的愛,不让你们感到孤单,寂寞。
不让你们觉得有差别,无论接下来的日子会有多困难,多疲累,妈妈都会撑着。。

接下来,妈妈有些话想对你们说。。
”宝贝们,你们好啊。
我是妈妈哦。
我不知道这段话你们几时才会读,不过妈妈还是要告诉你们。

对不起,妈妈没能给你们完整的家。
但是妈妈真的好爱好爱你们。

小欣颖,小欣蕾,虽然你们只有妈妈,
但要记住哦,
不管未来的日子会是怎么样,你们永远都是我的宝贝哦。
因为你们是妈妈这辈子最爱最爱的宝贝。

他们说,孩子是妈妈最美的礼物,而妈妈我真的这么认为;
因为你们的笑是我的全世界,是你们带来希望的明天。
有你们的日子都是感谢,简单的幸福就是我最大的心愿。
我们要一辈子,手拉手,脸贴脸,直到永远哦。“